5:30 AM Thoughts

Author's note: This is really really unfurnished. Please read at your own risk :)

I underwent a wisdom teeth removal surgery, and I say teeth because I got two removed. But anyway, that is a story for another time. Now, when I went to sleep, I still couldn't feel anything because of the local anesthesia. For some reason, I didn't feel sleepy, and I thought it would come to bite me back (it did). I woke up at 5 in the morning with a lot of pain (I didn't say agonizing because I experienced agonizing pain yesterday :p)

I tried to sleep, but that didn't work out with my mind constantly attending to the pain. So, I decided to sit around for a while, texted a friend (and what a stroke of luck! She was awake), and laid back down. When that didn't work out, I woke my parents up, and asked for a medicine - we were also prepared with an injection since this was expected. Anyway, I took the pill, and now, all I had to do was wait for the medicine to take effect.

I got my earphones and stood around on the balcony for a while. Early mornings always fascinate me, and this one more so since it was raining! (probably due to the cyclone in southern India). It is just so awe-inspiring to see the entire world come to a stand-still. And slowly, every half hour or so, you'd watch a bulb light up somewhere in someone's flat - people were starting to wake up to do their chores. The same thing every day, yet the morning brings a different kind of energy. This morning had different energy: peaceful atmosphere, the fragrance of wet clay, and Mukeshji's music playing in my earphones - at a volume low enough for me to hear the raindrops falling. All I wanted was the time to freeze for me to record these moments - something which even the best camera is incapable of reproducing.

And this piece of text? Well, this is my futile attempt at recording the beauty I could never truly grasp and probably will never be able to. By the way, Good Morning!

Location: Ahmedabad, Gujarat, India

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